9.14.2012

movin' right along

Well, folks, we completed our interviews........{ DEEP SIGH OF RELIEF }.......... I don't think I realized how ridiculously nervous I was until after the fact, when I had a chance to reflect over the last couple of weeks.  I had to swallow my pride and apologize to M for being on edge once I realized how often I had snapped and just had a general bad attitude.  In case you didn't pick up on it in my last post, I am, without a shadow of a doubt, the introvert in our relationship.  So, the thought of sitting in a room with our social worker (and a trainee) and Mike for the first one, and then by myself for the second one, scared me more than almost anything has.  PLUS, I had absolutely no idea what questions they were going to ask.  It could be anything from my entire life....from my family upbringing to my relationship to my husband to how I raise my children.  It wasn't just what I have accomplished in life that is important but the very essence of who I am.

Obviously, you can tell, my brain has been going 90 to nothing since the moment I found out about the interviewing process, and now it seems surreal that they are over with.  This process has caused me to pray more, read scripture more, and essentially lean more on my heavenly father for strength, confidence, and peace.  Now that I can relax and breathe, I feel like I can focus more on our little girl (or boy) and her birth mother (and father).  Worry and anxiety are starting to be replaced with excitement and anticipation.  And one the most awesome things about all of this is that it doesn't have anything to do with my ability to answer questions well or make myself calm down.  It's Christ's work alone, through me.  How blessed I am that he would even choose me to work this out!

We should hear soon about our interviews, then we will have to complete our 8 hours of online training courses as well as finish reading our books and raise a little money.  Next big hurdle will be our home inspection.  So, we are making progress but still have a ways to go.  Thank you so much to everyone for keeping us in your thoughts and prayers and for the sweet words of encouragement.  It means more to us than you know!  

If any of you readers have any words of wisdom or questions, we'd love to hear them!

{ Maybe I can coax the resident extrovert to blog about his experience in the next post, to see another point of view }

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